It's... about the fall of Sindria. I know you took in Serendine, along with others, but. Judar said it was a medium. Something this... Il Ilah would try to touch the world through. And that something - or someone came into you through it. That is now trying to influence you to do something horrible.
( He shakes his head. ) It all sounds ridiculous, but I can't figure out how to explain that memory of his without asking you this. I don't want it to happen, Sin. I want to stop it before it ever can happen.
[ Sinbad just looks perplexed by this, but to be fair, what had happened at the very end of that battle was hazy at best. He'd half-Fallen into Depravity because of what had gone down - might have entirely if not for the hopes those he took in also held - their sorrow, their grief, their pain, their loss, yes, but also their dreams. Their hope. Their love. Two sides of a coin, and so much of it, always. ]
Ja'far. I have no idea who this Il Ilah is. He claims this was like the incident from Magnostadt? But Ja'far, if that was the case, how was it stopped? How did the world not end? You saw how many of us it took to stop it on that battlefield. There were none there in Sindria who could wield that sort of power - even me, not on my own.
( So much of that was unknown to Ja'far as well, things he'd wondered about over the years, but never had asked, since it had been so much for Sinbad. He had just been happy that Sinbad was alive. But now, he's just scared. That memory... It was wrong. It had to be. )
I don't know, and that's what scares me, Sin. I don't know what happened during that last battle, and I was on the ships during Magnostadt. But, I saw that thing in the sky, reaching for that medium. He said that's what's Il Ilah. And it's a god.
I don't necessarily believe in gods, but... I believe that thing is a threat, something we've strived to stop in what we've been doing.
( He sighs, leaning into that touch, his hand cupping Sinbad's in turn. ) I don't want it to be real, Sin. I don't want even the possibility of it to be real. That's why I wanted to talk to you about it, to maybe change whatever this is. Stop it from happening, if it's real.
If such a thing is truth, then you know we will stop it, Ja'far. [ His gaze and voice are serious as he meets his lover's gaze. ] We've come too far to fail in what we've always aimed to accomplish.
Sin. You're always so idealistic. ( It's a sigh, but he's half relieved. With Sinbad like this, idealistic as ever, it does give him hope. He won't worry about this as much, not for now. ) Then I will keep it in my mind, just in case. If we ever get to leave this place, we'll stop it. I won't let you turn on yourself if Judar is somehow right.
I think it more likely that Judar being right about something is as much cause for a world-shaking catastrophe as me being possessed by an evil god of Al-Tharmin.
I'd have to agree with you. If I had not shared that cocoa with Aspen, I would have ignored the validity of any of what I saw to begin with. But... ( He sighs. ) Just be careful, Sin. You get into enough things as it is.
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Date: 2019-01-02 06:37 pm (UTC)( He shakes his head. ) It all sounds ridiculous, but I can't figure out how to explain that memory of his without asking you this. I don't want it to happen, Sin. I want to stop it before it ever can happen.
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Date: 2019-01-07 01:46 pm (UTC)Ja'far. I have no idea who this Il Ilah is. He claims this was like the incident from Magnostadt? But Ja'far, if that was the case, how was it stopped? How did the world not end? You saw how many of us it took to stop it on that battlefield. There were none there in Sindria who could wield that sort of power - even me, not on my own.
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Date: 2019-01-07 02:09 pm (UTC)I don't know, and that's what scares me, Sin. I don't know what happened during that last battle, and I was on the ships during Magnostadt. But, I saw that thing in the sky, reaching for that medium. He said that's what's Il Ilah. And it's a god.
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Date: 2019-01-08 12:36 am (UTC)[ Sinbad's voice is soft, but there's a slight frown on his lips as he reaches out to cup a hand against Ja'far's cheek. ]
What can I do to reassure you, Ja'far? I don't want you to be scared of... of something that probably isn't even real.
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Date: 2019-01-08 01:27 am (UTC)( He sighs, leaning into that touch, his hand cupping Sinbad's in turn. ) I don't want it to be real, Sin. I don't want even the possibility of it to be real. That's why I wanted to talk to you about it, to maybe change whatever this is. Stop it from happening, if it's real.
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Date: 2019-01-08 05:48 pm (UTC)honey you've got a big storm coming.gif
Date: 2019-01-08 06:00 pm (UTC)/innocent halo
Date: 2019-01-09 11:16 pm (UTC)I think it more likely that Judar being right about something is as much cause for a world-shaking catastrophe as me being possessed by an evil god of Al-Tharmin.
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Date: 2019-01-10 04:47 am (UTC)I'd have to agree with you. If I had not shared that cocoa with Aspen, I would have ignored the validity of any of what I saw to begin with. But... ( He sighs. ) Just be careful, Sin. You get into enough things as it is.
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Date: 2019-01-20 10:43 pm (UTC)[ It's said with an audible grin, because they both know that's an absolute lie. ]
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Date: 2019-01-20 10:45 pm (UTC)( Hdu Sin. Hdu. )
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Date: 2019-01-20 10:46 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-01-20 10:51 pm (UTC)You know exactly what I said, you stubborn fool. Just be careful, for once in your life.
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Date: 2019-01-21 12:36 am (UTC)I'll be careful.
[ ... ]
More careful.
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Date: 2019-01-21 12:41 am (UTC)At least that.
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Date: 2019-01-21 01:31 am (UTC)i was gonna just leave this as a gag tag, but no, it's legit
Date: 2019-01-21 01:35 am (UTC)