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Sin, I know. But I can't write off what I saw in his... memories. ( That stupid hot cocoa. ) We accidentally managed to share a drink in Patara. What I saw through that... Sin, it didn't make any sense.
( He starts to explain, then, what he saw through Judar's memory - a small, young Sinbad, shouting questions about god, what Judar said had happened. Some of what Judar explained through the rukh. )
None of this makes sense to me. I don't know if I believe a lick of it, but he's offered to show it through Kouen's rukh if need be. If any of this is true, Sin...
( He starts to explain, then, what he saw through Judar's memory - a small, young Sinbad, shouting questions about god, what Judar said had happened. Some of what Judar explained through the rukh. )
None of this makes sense to me. I don't know if I believe a lick of it, but he's offered to show it through Kouen's rukh if need be. If any of this is true, Sin...
[ Sinbad makes a strangled noise in the back of his throat before he tugs Ja'far back tight against his chest, burying his face against his hair. ]
You little fool.
You little fool.
[ He knows of the cocoa now, had experienced it with Aspen, and he stills, his eyes widening slightly. He's fairly certain there's less chances of lying through that, although he still did not expect Judar's memories to be anything but biased.
But still. He heaves a deep sigh, settling back on the stool once more and fixing Ja'far with an even look. ]
Why don't you tell me what you saw and what has you worried? I confess, I know nothing of what Judar was babbling on about, so I don't know what you expect me to tell you.
But still. He heaves a deep sigh, settling back on the stool once more and fixing Ja'far with an even look. ]
Why don't you tell me what you saw and what has you worried? I confess, I know nothing of what Judar was babbling on about, so I don't know what you expect me to tell you.
( Ja'far stiffens at that strangled noise, falling against Sinbad in confusion, wondering what-
Ah. )
Sin, it's not foolish. It's something I had to realize. If I placed my feelings above what Sindria needed, it'd be pointless. I wasn't about to endanger either of you just because I-
( He pauses, just letting himself be held against Sinbad for a moment. Something he never thought would happen. Not like this. ) Just because I had romantic feelings for you. It's... regardless, that doesn't matter here. Being with you can only help improve our situation, I can be open in... in my affection for you, and- ( Gods, why did he feel choked up about this? This was silly. He's not some foolish child. ) I love you and Sindria more than anything else. I would do whatever I had to to protect both of you.
Ah. )
Sin, it's not foolish. It's something I had to realize. If I placed my feelings above what Sindria needed, it'd be pointless. I wasn't about to endanger either of you just because I-
( He pauses, just letting himself be held against Sinbad for a moment. Something he never thought would happen. Not like this. ) Just because I had romantic feelings for you. It's... regardless, that doesn't matter here. Being with you can only help improve our situation, I can be open in... in my affection for you, and- ( Gods, why did he feel choked up about this? This was silly. He's not some foolish child. ) I love you and Sindria more than anything else. I would do whatever I had to to protect both of you.
[ Sinbad's grip remains tight for all of a moment before he turns Ja'far and lifts him, perching him on the edge of the kitchen counter so he's now at eye-level with his king. Leaning close, Sinbad braces both hands to the countertop at either side of his hips, his gaze narrowed on Ja'far's face. ]
It is foolish. You are part of Sindria, Ja'far, and you are important to me. Perhaps one of the most important and closest of my companions - our companions. You know me deeper than all the others, have followed more closely, understand the choices I have made - and why I've had to make them.
I realize you would do just about anything to achieve what Sindria needs - or what I may need. BUt what about your needs, Ja'far?
It is foolish. You are part of Sindria, Ja'far, and you are important to me. Perhaps one of the most important and closest of my companions - our companions. You know me deeper than all the others, have followed more closely, understand the choices I have made - and why I've had to make them.
I realize you would do just about anything to achieve what Sindria needs - or what I may need. BUt what about your needs, Ja'far?
It's... about the fall of Sindria. I know you took in Serendine, along with others, but. Judar said it was a medium. Something this... Il Ilah would try to touch the world through. And that something - or someone came into you through it. That is now trying to influence you to do something horrible.
( He shakes his head. ) It all sounds ridiculous, but I can't figure out how to explain that memory of his without asking you this. I don't want it to happen, Sin. I want to stop it before it ever can happen.
( He shakes his head. ) It all sounds ridiculous, but I can't figure out how to explain that memory of his without asking you this. I don't want it to happen, Sin. I want to stop it before it ever can happen.
( Ja'far's quiet for a long beat, staring at Sinbad, and then to the side. )
...My needs are irrelevant, at least in regards to this. I am by your side, that's all I've really wanted. ( He looks back up at Sinbad, focusing on him, staring him down in turn. )
You can't put my needs ahead of everyone else's, Sin. Not Sindria, not our companions, not anyone. Not even you. What we've built, what we continue to build, is what is important. Not whether or not I get to share your bed. ( At least, outside of this place. )
I can be with you here, and in a way that makes me happy. I can strengthen you by being by your side, by sharing myself with you more. It's... this place, I would not trade Sindria for it, not ever, but if that is balm I can have here, then I will take it. I love you, Sin, but I cannot place that above what we have worked our entire lives for.
...My needs are irrelevant, at least in regards to this. I am by your side, that's all I've really wanted. ( He looks back up at Sinbad, focusing on him, staring him down in turn. )
You can't put my needs ahead of everyone else's, Sin. Not Sindria, not our companions, not anyone. Not even you. What we've built, what we continue to build, is what is important. Not whether or not I get to share your bed. ( At least, outside of this place. )
I can be with you here, and in a way that makes me happy. I can strengthen you by being by your side, by sharing myself with you more. It's... this place, I would not trade Sindria for it, not ever, but if that is balm I can have here, then I will take it. I love you, Sin, but I cannot place that above what we have worked our entire lives for.
[Two packages are delivered on the same day. One is for Ja'far, so no peeking in that one Sinbad.
Within is a black leather case, that contains a set of sterling silver hair brushes, and a hand mirror, as well as a note.]
My dearest Sinbad,
From the very beginning, you have been there for me. You are a light that draws so many to your brilliance and warmth, and I am no exception. How can I ever express the depths of my feelings for you?
This token is hardly expressive of how much I adore you, but I hope you like it regardless. And perhaps you'll let me use them on you sometime.
Love,
-Syeira
Within is a black leather case, that contains a set of sterling silver hair brushes, and a hand mirror, as well as a note.]
My dearest Sinbad,
From the very beginning, you have been there for me. You are a light that draws so many to your brilliance and warmth, and I am no exception. How can I ever express the depths of my feelings for you?
This token is hardly expressive of how much I adore you, but I hope you like it regardless. And perhaps you'll let me use them on you sometime.
Love,
-Syeira
( On Sinbad's desk is a carefully wrapped medium size package. The tag on top would instantly let him know it's from Ja'far, and the contents would just be even more of an indicator it's from his general. Inside is a multitude of things meant for their new, modern office - nice paper, fancy pens, some more various office supplies that Sinbad would most likely use day to day. It's a bit tongue in cheek - Ja'far's obviously asking Sinbad to do his work, as per usual - but all of the items are of high quality, in colors and styles Sinbad would like, and clearly something Ja'far put thought into, despite the jab at the heart of it.
But, if Sinbad shifts through all of the office supplies, he'll find another small, wrapped package at the bottom, this one with a separate note. )
With all of the gift giving, I wanted to join the spirit and give you something as well, Sin.
Somehow, we haven't spent time together that included me wearing something for you. Aspen helped me pick these out, but the only one who will get to see me in them is you.
Love,
Ja'far
( Inside the second package, there are two sets of lingerie - one folded neatly on top of a second set - the latter of which seems to be two put together, specifically for Sinbad.
Is Ja'far kind of flustered about it? You bet he is. But he's also a bit excited for Sinbad's reaction to it.Especially after having to tell him about Kouen, this should be a good gift, right? Right. )
But, if Sinbad shifts through all of the office supplies, he'll find another small, wrapped package at the bottom, this one with a separate note. )
With all of the gift giving, I wanted to join the spirit and give you something as well, Sin.
Somehow, we haven't spent time together that included me wearing something for you. Aspen helped me pick these out, but the only one who will get to see me in them is you.
Love,
Ja'far
( Inside the second package, there are two sets of lingerie - one folded neatly on top of a second set - the latter of which seems to be two put together, specifically for Sinbad.
Is Ja'far kind of flustered about it? You bet he is. But he's also a bit excited for Sinbad's reaction to it.
[ That gets a laugh huffed softly against slicked skin before Sinbad licks him again, from base to tip, drawing the moment out. ]
Wound enough. It is your control that is so flawless, Aspen. Do you not enjoy this part, when the tables are turned? Seeing your partners come undone in pleasure? Knowing that you give them pleasure that drives away all thought, all sense, all control?
Wound enough. It is your control that is so flawless, Aspen. Do you not enjoy this part, when the tables are turned? Seeing your partners come undone in pleasure? Knowing that you give them pleasure that drives away all thought, all sense, all control?
And this is why you are a fool. [ The words are a bit harsh, perhaps, but they're still said with utter fondness as Sinbad leans in, catches Ja'far's lips with his own in a deep, biting kiss for a long moment. ]
Your needs are never irrelevant, Ja'far. I can understand you not wanting to put them above the others, or Sindria's, but that makes yours no less important to me. I'll not argue the importance of all we've done, but are you so certain their needs couldn't have still been met and yours as well? That perhaps they might even be better for it?
[ He kisses him again, hand sliding to cup at the nape of Ja'far's neck and holding him close. ] I want you, Ja'far. I love you. And I have ever been stronger - and better - for having you at my side - wherever that may be.
Your needs are never irrelevant, Ja'far. I can understand you not wanting to put them above the others, or Sindria's, but that makes yours no less important to me. I'll not argue the importance of all we've done, but are you so certain their needs couldn't have still been met and yours as well? That perhaps they might even be better for it?
[ He kisses him again, hand sliding to cup at the nape of Ja'far's neck and holding him close. ] I want you, Ja'far. I love you. And I have ever been stronger - and better - for having you at my side - wherever that may be.
[ Sinbad just looks perplexed by this, but to be fair, what had happened at the very end of that battle was hazy at best. He'd half-Fallen into Depravity because of what had gone down - might have entirely if not for the hopes those he took in also held - their sorrow, their grief, their pain, their loss, yes, but also their dreams. Their hope. Their love. Two sides of a coin, and so much of it, always. ]
Ja'far. I have no idea who this Il Ilah is. He claims this was like the incident from Magnostadt? But Ja'far, if that was the case, how was it stopped? How did the world not end? You saw how many of us it took to stop it on that battlefield. There were none there in Sindria who could wield that sort of power - even me, not on my own.
Ja'far. I have no idea who this Il Ilah is. He claims this was like the incident from Magnostadt? But Ja'far, if that was the case, how was it stopped? How did the world not end? You saw how many of us it took to stop it on that battlefield. There were none there in Sindria who could wield that sort of power - even me, not on my own.
( So much of that was unknown to Ja'far as well, things he'd wondered about over the years, but never had asked, since it had been so much for Sinbad. He had just been happy that Sinbad was alive. But now, he's just scared. That memory... It was wrong. It had to be. )
I don't know, and that's what scares me, Sin. I don't know what happened during that last battle, and I was on the ships during Magnostadt. But, I saw that thing in the sky, reaching for that medium. He said that's what's Il Ilah. And it's a god.
I don't know, and that's what scares me, Sin. I don't know what happened during that last battle, and I was on the ships during Magnostadt. But, I saw that thing in the sky, reaching for that medium. He said that's what's Il Ilah. And it's a god.
( He wants to argue, to push more how much this wouldn't work back home, how it'd just ruin things, but. Those kisses, oh, they steal his breath away. That touch, something he's not necessarily longed for, but has wanted, has now needed, melts him a little, cools the determination. Sinbad always had a way of pushing things, and this was no exception.
He sighs softly, leaning his forehead against Sinbad's. )
You're too idealistic sometimes, Sin. I can't say you're right, neither of us know, we can't know here, but...
( He kisses him, softly, something gentle and very, very fond. ) Gods, I love you, too.
He sighs softly, leaning his forehead against Sinbad's. )
You're too idealistic sometimes, Sin. I can't say you're right, neither of us know, we can't know here, but...
( He kisses him, softly, something gentle and very, very fond. ) Gods, I love you, too.
You can't say I'm wrong, either.
[ Sinbad, idealistically, points out with a crooked smile as he stays propped against him, meeting his gaze. ]
And also Aspen now, hmm?
[ Sinbad, idealistically, points out with a crooked smile as he stays propped against him, meeting his gaze. ]
And also Aspen now, hmm?
Since when do you believe in gods? After all we've seen?
[ Sinbad's voice is soft, but there's a slight frown on his lips as he reaches out to cup a hand against Ja'far's cheek. ]
What can I do to reassure you, Ja'far? I don't want you to be scared of... of something that probably isn't even real.
[ Sinbad's voice is soft, but there's a slight frown on his lips as he reaches out to cup a hand against Ja'far's cheek. ]
What can I do to reassure you, Ja'far? I don't want you to be scared of... of something that probably isn't even real.
Yes, and that's what makes this entirely frustrating. ( He huffs, but it's more playful, less heavy.
Though, he startles at that last thing, face turning back to red. ) Sin- Yes. Aspen now, too. I... He's very wonderful, and I feel very comfortable and safe around him. It's hard not to.
Though, he startles at that last thing, face turning back to red. ) Sin- Yes. Aspen now, too. I... He's very wonderful, and I feel very comfortable and safe around him. It's hard not to.
I don't necessarily believe in gods, but... I believe that thing is a threat, something we've strived to stop in what we've been doing.
( He sighs, leaning into that touch, his hand cupping Sinbad's in turn. ) I don't want it to be real, Sin. I don't want even the possibility of it to be real. That's why I wanted to talk to you about it, to maybe change whatever this is. Stop it from happening, if it's real.
( He sighs, leaning into that touch, his hand cupping Sinbad's in turn. ) I don't want it to be real, Sin. I don't want even the possibility of it to be real. That's why I wanted to talk to you about it, to maybe change whatever this is. Stop it from happening, if it's real.
[Bo's voice is tight, which is very unlike her, honestly.]
Hey, Sin? I need a favor. You free right now?
Hey, Sin? I need a favor. You free right now?
Bo?
[ There's surprise in his tone, but he's quick to answer, setting aside what he was doing. ]
Of course. What do you need?
[ There's surprise in his tone, but he's quick to answer, setting aside what he was doing. ]
Of course. What do you need?
I think that's answer enough, don't you?
[ Is that laughter in his voice? Probably.
He repeats the slow lick before sucking the very tip of Aspen's arousal into the wet heat of his mouth, bobbing his head slowly around him. ]
[ Is that laughter in his voice? Probably.
He repeats the slow lick before sucking the very tip of Aspen's arousal into the wet heat of his mouth, bobbing his head slowly around him. ]
It is hard not to. [ He agrees to this with an unrepentant grin, smoothing his fingers through Ja'far's soft hair. ] And I'm glad for it. I think he will be good for you. And you, for him.
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